sleepless night~~

recently… i dont really have a good sleep… 

n totally cant cheer up these days. 

mayb im homesick???? 

kind of i guess.. 

the time i spend in kampar just lik few years to me although there’s is not even one week full.. 

GOSH!!! TORTURING… 

T.T 

♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠ 

n the news of dragon boat make me more n more miss my family seriously. 

its really make my tears drop once i read the news. 

this incident + homesick is killing me cruely.. 

papa n mama, i really miss u guys so much.. 

my lovely granny, my both stubborn siss.. 

my cute niece.. 

the one i love n always want him to acc me.. 

my frenssss.. 

n my dearest pai kuat.. 

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥I MISS U ALL damn much!!!!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ 

AGAIN, im tired n exshauted but i just cant sleep. 

what’s wrong wth me?? 

i’ve been learned to be appreciate n independent now.. 

i have to find my ways out to fill my stomach when im hungry,there’s no more cooked food on the dining table waiting for me.. 

i have to wash my cloths even when im feeling tired.. 

I HAVE TO do all the things with my own hands. 

no one gonna help me except myself.. 

n the transportation n where im now make me hard  to go outside n just buy buy buy wadever i wan to eat. 

here, dont have the laksa i want, n family or any close person are not right beside me, any food i ate, seems lik tasteless.. 

what i’ve done is eat the food together with my tears. 

suddenly feel lik im lost. 

im really lost.. 

i cant just call my parents i miss wadever in PENANG.. 

because this is the place i’ve chose to study.. 

i have no rights to say the words miss either.. 

the frens i knew n will make me feel more comfort to kampar are now having their internship. 

so its really have to depends on myself AT ALL.. 

while i admit that im not an independent person, n its really hard for me seriously.. 

I DO LOVE PENANG VERY MUCH WITH NO DOUBT!!! 

i really do.. 

well, i have no choice other than make my pillow wet everynight before i go into dreams.. 

sounds pity nuh?? 

in words, im not happy with where i am now.. 

but NTG can be done.. 

nitex~~