JoLyn

IM wonDer

2010-03-08T23:44:00.001+08:00

how peace it is……

BUT

feeling like a dead body walking around in this 2months plus..
did i made a right choice?
im wonder..
a place i hate a lot..
dont have food that i wanted to eat,
no one beside when i needed..
seperated with my family..
seperated with my buddies..
dont have the chance to spend my money either,
tears drop without anyone knowing every night,
not satisfy with the lousy campus work,
few times of last minute notice about class cancel where there are just a few step left to reach.
freaking hot weather i ever experienced..
im suffer living at here..
CAN I STIL SURVIVE IN THE PLACE I HATED SO MUCH??

IM WONDER…

<give me a hand to kill me plzzzz>

~siCk~

2010-02-26T15:01:00.001+08:00

so long did not blog d....
=P
im sick jor..
feeling so bad..
so so miss my home sweet home..
when people are not in the place they want, they will miss it, but when they are there, they try to go somewhere else pulak.. (tats me)
*sight*
i was thinking how good if any of my family or close fren were here beside me..
*DOWN*
im falling sick when i have 3 assign to rush..
Wad The Fissshhhhhhhhh!!!
im so wanna to share my cny photos here but yet i dont have all tat photos wth me..
how sad har????
hmmmmmm..
well i wil post my photos once i get it..
^^
god plz bless me recover soon..
i stil have lots of work to finish it..
~^^~

i miss my ah ma..
i miss my mama..
i miss my papa..
i miss my mei mei..
i miss my jie jie..
i miss my niecesss...
i miss my pai kuat..
i miss my frens..
i miss PG food..
i miss redbox..
n
i miss my bubu..
=(

eat my emo away~~~

2010-02-04T00:39:00.001+08:00

EAT EMO AWAY~~~~~ EAT EAT EAT!!!!!! HMP!

~l.o.v.e~ OR ~t.r.u.s.t~

2010-02-03T17:05:00.002+08:00

wad so called love???
its easy to say hard to make it..

~when you love someone~
of coz hope he/she is happy

~when you love someone~
of coz you care about wad his/her feeling

~when you love someone~
of coz you will never do something which break his/her heart easily

~when you love someone~
of coz you will become BLIND!!!!

SO PEOPLE SAID ~LOVE IS BLIND~

sometimes..
we doubt is not because we are not trusting each other,
but we do not know when is the right time to trust.
we said we TRUST yet we still will worry bout wad he is doing, he is now hanging out with who ect……
we do not trust because we are not feeling confident to ourselves?
or he/she is really cannot be trust??

sometimes..
we need his consideration because we are not in the right situation.
we are moody and we need accompany by him
we need listen to his voice to make ourselves feel save when we are in the place which full of stranger
BUT…………

sometimes..
WHAT WE THINK DOES NOT MEAN HE IS THINKING SO….
he might think what he do is the right but to us, maybe will become hard feeling to us…

~l.o.v.e~
is a tiring stuff..
it is not that happy as i think for all the time
i myself have no idea what he should do to make me feel comfort
to make me feel save
may be i should not know as much things as i can..
may be i’ll feel better.
for sure, i’ll not report anything of mine to you and so do you..
the much i know i feel worry
but yet you stil make the decision i do not like as well
YOU STIL MAKE THAT DECISION EVEN YOU KNOW I DONT LIKE IT OR I CARE ABOUT IT..
the fact.. i have hard feeling because you did so..
now you happy??!

now..
i just want to shout~~
i’m tired..
i’m really feel tired…

X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.X.O.

black WED~~~

2010-01-28T02:10:00.002+08:00

ha ha..
today so unlucky..
my fren could not get the sticker n we are not allow to go into UTAR..
have to go to the other side n park outside den walk in..
when reach to the entrance there..
my fren’s tyre pumpcheck..
at 1st we plan to go earlier n take photo for our student ID,
then apply public acc only go to class..
who knows we are rush of time after took a big round to the other entrance,
and we can only choose one thing to complete.
AND
we choose to apply public bank acc 1st.
when reach there,
the officer told us its already full,
come again 2mr plz..
we r so so so speechless that time..
n so hot cause we r walking from the entrance to block C..
it is quite a distance..
and when wanna drink water.. only i found out i forget to bring my bottle..
ish..
really is a bad day.
after class..
me n my fren walk around 20mins by pushing the bike to fix..
it took us almost 1hr to wait there..
slow motion uncle..
zzz

after that.
we went to night market n bought this

our dinner~~~

i lik tis the most

AI YU BING~~
yum yum yummy…..!!!

ITS RAIN WHEN WE R ON THE WAY BEC FROM NIGHT MARKET….
AIKZX..
SUIIIIIIIIIIIIII~~~

hmmmm..
ntg much to say just wanna say SWEET DREAMS everyone!!
(PS:when only u wanna webcam wth me huh alexis????)

Emo

2010-01-24T01:55:00.001+08:00

not much to say n bein emo emo emo..
*sight*

my dinner except the fried mee.. but it is tasty..

n next is wad i bought from tesco >>> conditioner rm1.73 each (180ml)

n wad im missing so much.. jomei n jojo.. ^^

悲从中来~~

2010-01-22T20:17:00.005+08:00

today class end on 11am..

take a nap til 5pm after tat..

took my 1st meal on 6smtg..
♥♥♥♥♥♥

suddenly mama called..

"how r u? everything ok? ate d? got cook n eat or not?”

den she pass for my papa..

"how’s life der? stil rmb wad i told u? drink water every morning once u wake ar..”i answerd: ‘' yes yes.. i did drink.. here so sen.. =( "

'bo huat lor, sen also nid cont study ar, ya i opened ur muet test letter, nvrmind hor?” papa said

"nvrmind lar, just pass the rate”

"ok lar take care urself, papa wan start work d',byebye”

lik tat..

i ended my call wth my parents..
i feel warm n touch.

~~I MISS THEM SOOOOOOOO SO MUCH~~

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

doin ntg n read my ex-tutor’s blog..
its sad n i could not stop my tears from dropping after i read..
its about his 5students who dead in drowning,
n the previous case kampar incident, one of the student r his student too.. my batch student somemore..
from wad he wrote in his blog,
he is very very upsad n down,
for a normal person, who can accept his 6 students which is like his close frens who wil nvr going to show up themselves anymore just an unlucky incident???

☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼

BE TOUGH A SIR, U R THE BEST TUTOR EVER!
♥♥♥
its reminds me the time when i went to his tuition class,
i used to be very close wth him too..
he liks to joke n make students not feeling bored in class,
he liks to perli me, steps my leg purposely n apologize den..
liks to shout suddenly n make all the student get shock den only he laugh at der..
sometimes wil go supper wth us after class,
fetch us home sometimes,
n we have been go to redbox once n duet..
of course he did scold me before too,
shouted me infront of the class..
coz my add math is such a huge embarrassment coz im so dumb.
(ps, i did angry him that time cause im a gal n u SHOUTED me infront everyones because i have no idea what is the solution for the add math Q he asked, its kind of sad)
everytime before go to his class, me n my fren always feel nervous,
sometimes is becoz we no yet finish his homework,
sometimes worry that he wil call us to giv answer infront of the whole class..
yet we r stil excited to go his class..
his humour, his laughter, his shout which full of strenght..
i’ve been stop taking tuition from him since im graduate which is already 4 years time,
n soon we r like stranger.. should say not tat close..
but what i wanna state here is..

U R STIL THE BEST TUTOR I EVER HAD..
BE STRONG~~~~

we are proud to have a tutor lik u.. appreciate ^^
really miss the tuition class much..
wish the time can go back perhaps.. ^^

☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼☼

n through reading a sir’s blog,
there is an unethical people which publish others things without permission just to complete his/her works!!
somemore it is a things that related to the puclicity..
APOLOGIZE if u are stil a human!!!
BLECK!!

1st day which is full of food i ever had in kampar

2010-01-21T00:19:00.004+08:00

just bathed.. its time for blog!!

hmmm.. today only have a class on 4pm..

just lik what i’ve mentioned..

washed my cloths before the class..

hand n leg were shaking whole day becoz squat in the toilet for the washing process..

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the class i attended is SOCIOLOGY..

miss ang, my lecturer is kind of humour person..

but mayb dont have notes yet n stil new in the class..

kind of hard to get what she tought.

n while im trying to read the notes provided by her through projector,

she pass me the mic in the QnA section,

mayb my concentration make her misunderstand that im showing interst to this sub.

ha ha~~ well im trying seriously..

but i had let her down with my speechless as ans..

*SORRY*

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after the class,

me n my classmate went to the night market nearby,

only wed night..

1st time we went to KAMPAR night market n this is wad we bought from the market which cost us rm10 each..

TWO of us bought this.. fried rice, fried chicken, fried crab balls, murtabak, kebab, lekor, siu mai, ABC n tong shui “ou guio”
mayb we r too impulse when see lots of food there.. but its a satisfaction.
n end up we are not able to finish it!! HAHA~~
I REALLY MISS PENANG FOOD, no doubt PG food is the best n nicer~~
the weather is freaking hot out there..
we are sweating just like we had 20round’s of jog..
OMG..
n its reminds me of when im stil in penang,
i went to the night market every friday night with the one i love..
we usually wil eat the “liong tau hu” once we reached, followed by red bean soup, sometimes mayb satay, fried chicken or fried squid, lekor, tong shui “ou goiu”, n mayb laksa..
(PS. we only walked to the food section,everytime)
hmmmmmm.. its memorable n I MISS IT!!
n
♥♥♥I MISS HIM♥♥♥
n
♥♥♥ I ♥ HIM♥♥♥

sleepless night~~

2010-01-20T03:24:00.002+08:00

recently… i dont really have a good sleep…

n totally cant cheer up these days.

mayb im homesick????

kind of i guess..

the time i spend in kampar just lik few years to me although there’s is not even one week full..

GOSH!!! TORTURING…

T.T

♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠♠

n the news of dragon boat make me more n more miss my family seriously.

its really make my tears drop once i read the news.

this incident + homesick is killing me cruely..

papa n mama, i really miss u guys so much..

my lovely granny, my both stubborn siss..

my cute niece..

the one i love n always want him to acc me..

my frenssss..

n my dearest pai kuat..

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥I MISS U ALL damn much!!!!♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

AGAIN, im tired n exshauted but i just cant sleep.

what’s wrong wth me??

i’ve been learned to be appreciate n independent now..

i have to find my ways out to fill my stomach when im hungry,there’s no more cooked food on the dining table waiting for me..

i have to wash my cloths even when im feeling tired..

I HAVE TO do all the things with my own hands.

no one gonna help me except myself..

n the transportation n where im now make me hard to go outside n just buy buy buy wadever i wan to eat.

here, dont have the laksa i want, n family or any close person are not right beside me, any food i ate, seems lik tasteless..

what i’ve done is eat the food together with my tears.

suddenly feel lik im lost.

im really lost..

i cant just call my parents i miss wadever in PENANG..

because this is the place i’ve chose to study..

i have no rights to say the words miss either..

the frens i knew n will make me feel more comfort to kampar are now having their internship.

so its really have to depends on myself AT ALL..

while i admit that im not an independent person, n its really hard for me seriously..

I DO LOVE PENANG VERY MUCH WITH NO DOUBT!!!

i really do..

well, i have no choice other than make my pillow wet everynight before i go into dreams..

sounds pity nuh??

in words, im not happy with where i am now..

but NTG can be done..

nitex~~

bored~~~~

2010-01-16T00:03:00.004+08:00

go UTAR listen PTPTN speech..

but listen NTG,

haha~~

den go bec hostel cook MOI..

lunch moi,

teatime moi,

dinner moi….

OMG..

yarksssss!!!

♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣♣

doin ntg n just watch drama…

until i msn wth my bebe..

he so bad..

seduce me wth mee…

arghhh***

(tat time im wondering wan cook or not)

suddenly think off laksa, tomyam, butter fish
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

OMG

Helppppppp!!!!!

goin CRAZY****

ALL THE FOOD JUST FLYING ACROSS MY MIND…

ish!!!

n chat wth my pai kuat..

she said she sick..

aikzx..

***WORRY HER***

TAKE CARE URSELF PLZ MY DEAR…

MISS U!!!
☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻☺☻

i was thinking of FOOD whole day long..

AIKZX..

how to get thin nuh???!!!

coming fri, sat n sun will be my BORED BORED BORED day…

cant even imagine..

*SIGH*

A good day

2010-01-13T00:02:00.002+08:00

hav a good sleep in my own sweet home
but just sit at my sofa n doin NTG
hehe
n afterall im havin laksa for teatime..
yumm yumm~~~

*kePUASan 5 STAR*

steamboat wth family♥♥♥..
crab, prawn, sotong, fish, lots of diff balls also ler..
havin a good time wth family
wad a good feeling nuh!!!

lik it!!

tis seafood steamboat cost around 200$ ler.. reasonable for 5 star right??! ^^

but for the time we spend together(family) is more den 5 star!! priceless..
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

cheers..

^^hoMe sWeet hOme^^

2010-01-11T22:32:00.002+08:00

reach my home sweet home~~~~~

stupid KAMPAR..

dont have well coverage..

cant on9 update update myself either..

well~~

i’m use to the life in kampar..

everything’s just fine

i know i can handle it too

BUT….

now i’m home n i feel tat i will miss my family, my home, my frens n for sure my B again

when thursday coming…

*SIGHT*

i can come bec always but it is too tired coz have to suffer around 6hrs on the road.

my butt force to stick wth the seat..

i hate tis feeling~~

mayb i wont bec often…

wad a sad feeling..

aikzx

wei lin

miss u!!

now

im goin to enjoy the time wth my family~~

~to be continue~

*chEeRs*

3 days before leavin the lovely island

2010-01-08T00:55:00.002+08:00

♥laksa laksa♥
it was my soul.. my life….

♥TomYam TomyAm♥
my spirit???

hmmmm…
i’m having these both as my lunch n dinner..
*yUmmy YumMy*
(NVR FORGET THE TASTE)

goin to watch movie after dinner,
ticket bought!!
but the movie did not show on the screen after waiting for 45mins….
asked the cinema stuff n they said technical prob n REFUND!!!
ha ha ha
1st time i got refund from cinema.
NTG do den..
go bec da bao my things..

but it is too lots of things to bring..
(MACAM WANNA MOVE HOUZEEEE~~ )
so i hav no idea how to pack either..

sob sob**goin crazy

1st blog of mine~~~

2010-01-06T20:36:00.001+08:00

start to create blog becoz goin to a village.. no more shopping mall, no more cinema, no longer hang out wth frens n have to update myself to my beloved frenssss tru a dead stuff..

phewwww~~~~

im not using to play any games or wadever which is related wth computer...

(coz i dont lik it much)

but i'm force to learn it from my fren>> weilin... spend a whole day long to learn from her n at the same time.. we r worrying our car park fees.

haha.

finally i learned.. n.. i own a blog.. n wil try to lik it!!

***Have a nice day everyOne***